Thank you, yeah i have heard it before and over the years it has been rather instrumental in helping to create a some form of a higher layer of reasoning I guess. Something that stops the negative spiraling getting out of hand, otherwise it can lead to depression again and that wasn’t pleasant, wouldn’t recommend.

Self hatred to a degree is still there, sometimes more, sometimes less, but there’s an overarching voice of reason that can see it’s irrational and not based in reality.

Yes it might become an issue further down the line, but that’s a problem I’m going to deal with when it happens. If i can squeeze out a few more years or even decades, it has been worth it. Not that there are anymore risks to mental breakdowns. Those were usually caused by alcohol and I’ve significantly reduced that intake.