Hi, I am in the picture. I am also very neurospicy and used to worry about how others judge me.
However, I found out that just like how I don’t really judge others on whether or not they’re neurospicy, I judge them based one how they treat others: others will likely have their own criteria to judge me. Honestly? If I’m doing my best and trying to keep being cool to everyone, I don’t care what criteria others use to judge me. The above comment is right, everyone faces this in one way or another. Everyone has their own way to approach it, too.
True, I feel caught. And it got me thinking. Maybe age and experience is also an influence there.
So picture me as friendly and nice slightly odd teenager. Then noticing evil reactions behind my back and sabotage, because of behavioral differences. This of course leads to judgment and resentment because it was done to me all my life. It’s human, also a protection mechanism.
It’s good to point out, however there’s no easy fix. It’s just how humans are in cause effect and keeping grudges.
So in a way I am caught in a permanent loop of getting harmed, protecting myself, being an ass, healing and it starts again.
It makes me resent humanity, sadly. But thst just seems part of the perks I involuntarily got.
You’re looking internally and wanting to improve on things that you feel are issues. Anyone doing that can’t be all that bad in my books, I believe in you.
Spoiler alert: this happens to everyone.
These universalizations are the main reason I keep it to myself and mask in OPs picture.
It’s different for everyone. You could also generalize that non autists oh well they also have all the issues autists have… And they do.
But it’s different. Only people never having experienced a painful generalization like this can make such a statement.
I am on pain medication because of neurological disorders. ‘oh yeah I am often in pain, too’…
Hi, I am in the picture. I am also very neurospicy and used to worry about how others judge me.
However, I found out that just like how I don’t really judge others on whether or not they’re neurospicy, I judge them based one how they treat others: others will likely have their own criteria to judge me. Honestly? If I’m doing my best and trying to keep being cool to everyone, I don’t care what criteria others use to judge me. The above comment is right, everyone faces this in one way or another. Everyone has their own way to approach it, too.
True, I feel caught. And it got me thinking. Maybe age and experience is also an influence there.
So picture me as friendly and nice slightly odd teenager. Then noticing evil reactions behind my back and sabotage, because of behavioral differences. This of course leads to judgment and resentment because it was done to me all my life. It’s human, also a protection mechanism.
It’s good to point out, however there’s no easy fix. It’s just how humans are in cause effect and keeping grudges.
So in a way I am caught in a permanent loop of getting harmed, protecting myself, being an ass, healing and it starts again.
It makes me resent humanity, sadly. But thst just seems part of the perks I involuntarily got.
You’re looking internally and wanting to improve on things that you feel are issues. Anyone doing that can’t be all that bad in my books, I believe in you.
Thank you, that must be one of the kindest things addressed at me on the internet.