Why is Lemmy so depressed? Guys, I’ve been there, but a mental change is ahead. And I know you hate me for saying this, or think I’m cringe or whatever. Just find the thing that really drives you.
No idea what that could be? Little pro tip: your anxiety can guide you. What scares you most? Talking in front of a group? Go join a theater club or something. You’ll probably find cool people.
Mostly because having a disorder that is a daily reminder of how much work it is just to function on a day to day basis and apparently remembering the fuck ups way more than the good things since the fuck ups are basically the same thing each time. It feels worse and worse each year, and honestly my biggest fear is that I will get dementia and not be able to tell because it that is how I have felt my entire life.
That said, reminding myself that I’m doing pretty well is the counterbalance that keeps me going. I’ve accepted my limits and just roll along with becoming a jack of all trades that still has to relearn anything I haven’t done for a few years. Meds help while they are active, but they don’t work 24 hours a day.
“I’ve accepted my limits and just roll along with becoming a jack of all trades that still has to relearn anything I haven’t done for a few years.”
This is tremendously relatable, and captures one of the things that I genuinely feel proud of. There are days where I’m like the person in the OP, but the more I practice at understanding and leaning into my nature, the easier it becomes to break out of that wistful cycle of internalised ableism
Today I get to bask after three days of deep cleaning my home! It is a good day today!
Though, getting a new dishwasher installed is what sparked it, anxiety drives me to get my stuff done. Why waiting until last minute sometimes can produce my best work (yet sometimes can cause disaster still).
I also pushed myself onto a leadership position at my work once. A two year commitment. I had to do a lot of public speaking, I absolutely hated it, and cursed myself for doing it to myself, but it was to bring me out of my comfort zone and I knew the payoff was to help and be a voice for my fellow employees I represented. It was tough.
Hell yeah, for me, using my anxiety as a driver for change has been massively helpful in my life. Face it- then its faced, I still have the anxiety but I understand it and can objectively react to it in a positive way.
Introspection is a hell of a thing.
Why is Lemmy so depressed? Guys, I’ve been there, but a mental change is ahead. And I know you hate me for saying this, or think I’m cringe or whatever. Just find the thing that really drives you.
No idea what that could be? Little pro tip: your anxiety can guide you. What scares you most? Talking in front of a group? Go join a theater club or something. You’ll probably find cool people.
Mostly because having a disorder that is a daily reminder of how much work it is just to function on a day to day basis and apparently remembering the fuck ups way more than the good things since the fuck ups are basically the same thing each time. It feels worse and worse each year, and honestly my biggest fear is that I will get dementia and not be able to tell because it that is how I have felt my entire life.
That said, reminding myself that I’m doing pretty well is the counterbalance that keeps me going. I’ve accepted my limits and just roll along with becoming a jack of all trades that still has to relearn anything I haven’t done for a few years. Meds help while they are active, but they don’t work 24 hours a day.
This is tremendously relatable, and captures one of the things that I genuinely feel proud of. There are days where I’m like the person in the OP, but the more I practice at understanding and leaning into my nature, the easier it becomes to break out of that wistful cycle of internalised ableism
My anxiety guides me.
Today I get to bask after three days of deep cleaning my home! It is a good day today!
Though, getting a new dishwasher installed is what sparked it, anxiety drives me to get my stuff done. Why waiting until last minute sometimes can produce my best work (yet sometimes can cause disaster still).
I also pushed myself onto a leadership position at my work once. A two year commitment. I had to do a lot of public speaking, I absolutely hated it, and cursed myself for doing it to myself, but it was to bring me out of my comfort zone and I knew the payoff was to help and be a voice for my fellow employees I represented. It was tough.
Hell yeah, for me, using my anxiety as a driver for change has been massively helpful in my life. Face it- then its faced, I still have the anxiety but I understand it and can objectively react to it in a positive way. Introspection is a hell of a thing.
Great to hear that you accepted your anxiety as your ‘friend’.
Oh it’s not a friend, but definitely well known about
my anxiety guides me. i have no idea why i have it.