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Trick is not to plan. It knows you’re coming. Ya get a lot more done if you just start doing and retroactively convince others it was a plan. Middle management 101!

I see little real value in diagnosis or doctors in general. That stems from my personal harsh reality of experiencing first hand the real limits and incompetency of current medicine. Go start having serious spinal issues that are not strait forward, and you will watch the house of cards fall apart.

Ultimately, none of us are like flags in the register if a computer; some binary state. We are all a spectrum. That applies to all things in life. You may be shifted strongly in one direction or another, but most of us fall somewhere close to the median.

I think a lot of people fail to understand that we all have the tendencies and mechanisms present for all disorders, baring schizophrenia. Labeling anything a disorder only means that whatever behavior is causing you distress and harm in a meaningful way. Just by asking if you have this issue is itself an admission of distress and you altered your day to go to the doctor, so you’ve already had it technically qualify as a disorder.

IMO, where possible, take the meds and see if it helps you in some tangible way. Maybe it does, maybe it doesn’t. What I’m saying is the threshold for disorder is ridiculously blurry and rather meaningless. When stigmatized, it is outright harmful. For me it is largely a choice and a comfort zone. Maybe that is just my bias. I do not test as autistic. Even as a kid, I had the Machiavellian awareness to become whatever I wanted and bend a test to my desired outcome.

Woke up today thinking I have all the skills to make and fix e-bikes and that is likely a good leverage point to start to escape my isolation and push myself incrementally.

I was feeling really good after like 3 weeks of being able to push myself hard with new meds. Then the ideas of wtf I am going to do with myself were overwhelming. Like a person can’t bottle helpless isolation for 11+ years and then just flip that switch like I’m fine now.

So yeah, a few dark days hit me. Waking up to the idea of messing with e-bikes was a win. I just need to finish my hot air rework station and set up my bedroom electronics lab properly again.

I don’t really lock in though. All my best ideas and epiphanies happen at random when I’m doing other stuff. If feels like a dozen unrelated threads are always running in the back of my head and one or two might be closer to the front. When I try to force the timeline or creativity, I usually run in circles and get nowhere. Give me a few days to mull something over and I will distil the issues unlike anyone else. I think I’m just really dumb because I don’t understand things like most people. Like I do see the logic and can go through the motions, but all most people appear to do is memorize bits and pieces of information. I want to fundamentally understand the subject at a useful and flexible level. I don’t value theory like I do applications. I can still do theory, but only when I ground it in a useful application. I place no value on memorization independent of application. I cannot keep those things in long term memory for very long. Six months later, I forget it all. My lock is that I mull over stuff in the background for weeks at a time like I’m always working on them in bits and pieces of thought. Still to this day I question even saying that out loud. Like it seems so basal that everyone should be doing the same. It is fundamental to me. The older I get the more I question that assumption.

Essentially he was. This is him saying I have no moral threshold and am available as an influencer to say and do whatever I am paid for. AKA I am still relevant to your agenda… Call me. It is the same as all the big tech CEOs bending to 47 after bending to diversity initiatives. People with no ethics or morals fly the banner of whomever has control and do so in ways the average person is far too stupid to process. 47 is hard pressed for black and minority supporters. For a leader of dogmatic tribal fools, aka an influencer, the vacuum of minority supporters for 47 is an open bounty for a very large paycheck in exchange for ethics especially in the Southeastern USA where any sway over potential Democratic voters is critical for the fascist republican agenda. Nothing is simple or straight forward when a person is at this level of political engagement and wealth.

There are many kinds of whores. Snoop is the fascist kind

Still mostly on AI since July 2023

There is more to the story of Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland than just a children’s story. There are several podcasts and blog posts on this that are easy to find. The book is public domain and on Gutenberg.org. There are also several audio book reads of the original text on YT. It is considered the holotype or foremost representative book in the literary nonsense genre, (the book ends with all of wonderland being a dream).

I think you need to pick up a book. Maybe get out of the sun. It can be harmful you know, bro

What is creepy about it? The entire story is really about Alice discovering rules and how she likes them so much. That is very much the world of an 8 year old. Not to mention all of the fanciful characters and tropes that were dreamed up.

There are many academic critiques and studies of the work. It is also central to Open AI’s QKV layers model alignment training. The story is the primary catalyst for creative randomness in terms of internal model thinking in both LLMs and embedding models used in image diffusion. For instance, all of the mechanisms that Alice used to become bigger and smaller are present in diffusion AI models with the caveat that no real person place or thing is present in the prompt. One does not need to bring up the detailed context of the story if one prompts the element with good specificity. A far easier method to play with is to prompt the queen of hearts or Alice as a character in an image using just a foundational base model. It should be quite clear how these images are a bit different in many ways. Those differences are not random and they are persistent across all models. Literary nonsense is the actual randomness that shows up in background objects and clothing in images. Prompting against the abstraction of genre is far more effective than attempting to describe your own details in the prompt with specificity.

In literature in general, Carroll’s work is the holotype for a genre. Analysing the work speaks to the human experience on many levels. The work has long been appreciated by all ages. So I am a bit baffled about what you find creepy about age in any context such as this. Like what kind of assumptions do you possibly feel grounded in here?

Is Alice 10 in Disney? In Lewis Carroll’s original work she is 8.

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Super rare cars in the poorer states, where nonconformity is treated like cancer?

Lotus Evora in Alabama? Wat?

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It’s not mean. It is nice.

How many are coming

I don’t know if I would be offended, but I’d be willing to let more than a few people control my mute button. I’d certainly get over it in like 10 minutes even if it did bug me… So long as they were genuine.

In truth, I don’t really see it as over explaining as much as my need to trace a path of connections through my empirical experiences and heuristics that access that information.

I think most people memorize stuff they do not actually understand. I understand things, but it is more like statistics and heuristics. I want to explain things to ground myself in where I’m at, and because my intent is to collaborate. I want to be wrong and I want you to tell me where exactly I make any wrong turns. I’m fundamentally curious and want to expand upon the subject of interest. I explain because I want to grow, and want to grow with you, collaboratively, and in depth. I’m fishing for someone else like me. I’m embarrassed not because I have over explained, but because I am such a poor judge of the curiosity and motivations of others and I mistook you for someone with infinite capacity for curiosity.

Testing for gaps to fill before taking Taiwan?