Oh yeah it’s definitely worth a try. Horrible stuff, but Chicagoans do build up a tolerance to it

Yeah I need to go in and get access to stuff I saved on my older distros/oses somehow

You can probably get a similar experience with the following cocktail: 1 part vodka to 1 part bitters

It may be closer to a quarter bitters but either way it’s herbal as hell and bitter as fuck

Buffalo trace is awesome but it’s got a huge shortage

Like, yeah I’m definitely not giving it, that’s not up for debate though. Receiving is where there’s room to discuss.

And it’s not like I’ve never done butt stuff, it’s just that I’ve learned to accept that I just generally prefer to stick to the other side. Especially now that I’m getting older and dealing with hemorrhoids. These days I feel butts are for hitting, grabbing, and displaying handkerchiefs.

I think it’s better to frame it as the submissive role attracts a certain type of insecure person, some of whom are well into the personality disorder or abusive range, and whose abusive tendencies can be less easy to see.

There are dominant equivalents, but it’s very much the narcissism to the submissive borderline. Those dominants refuse to take no for an answer and punish it not through fear of hurting them or of being seen as the villain, but instead with fear of being a bad sub or fear of disappointing them. Both make you fear their anger.

And the other big difference is the community has long been talking about abusive dominants, whereas we’re still in the process of starting the conversation about abusive submissives. Partly due to preconceived bias, but also partly due to severity of damage. Abusive subs are more likely to only really traumatize you, while abusive doms can enter into grievous bodily harm. It’s also that dominant style abuse is more visible at events. We’re starting to see consent conversions and warnings about abusive partners specifically talk about this though.

Repeatedly treating my stated boundaries as an opening point for negotiations. Emotional manipulation. Lies. Frequent demands of my time and energy claiming it was an emergency and harm would come to her without assistance. Making every hard no an opportunity to beat herself up and every soft no a drawn out negotiation.

The fact is she’s very good at all that and I wasn’t the last person in the community to be victimized by her (I was one of the first, and I was very open about it afterwards).

I accept that I didn’t maintain my boundaries nearly as well as I should have, it’s something I’ve always struggled with, and I have a hard time saying no to a person requesting help from me. I still have occasional nightmares of running into her. I still feel ridiculous being victimized like that.

Yeah, choking is the sort of thing people who do hook suspension may decide is outside their risk profile, but plenty of people will try it as their first kink act thinking it’s not that dangerous

I mostly blame the Hapsburgs myself

Oof yeah from what I’ve seen pros typically get really jaded, and that tends to either screw with their desire to dom or get them weird about it. Which like makes perfect sense from everything I’ve seen and heard.

And yesh finding a compatible partner can be very difficult. I lucked out and on my first date with my wife told her that part of what I wanted from life was lifestyle power exchange and she’d never even realized that was what she wanted.

But yeah in addition to compatibility issues, I’ve noticed over the years that a lot of subs are just awful at selling themselves to dommes.

Ok yeah if someone wanted to do that to me I might give it a shot. But yeah I wouldn’t be happy if she did it to me without a heads up

You start with American ingenuity. Or Scottish, those fuckers can fry anything

Yeah as a trans woman I’ve never seen someone identify as bi and thought “I shouldn’t hit on her” because of that label. And if I also found men attractive I’d almost certainly use that label.

Probably because the identities we circle back to often have merit even if we don’t like it (the number of years I kept finding stupid arguments that I wasn’t trans…)

It sounds like you dislike this about yourself. You could check to see if there’s a medical issue causing extremely low libido. But fair warning, it may just result in you being horny and not finding anyone attractive.

I’ve seen it, but the problem is twofold: Firstly subtle is better, adding a cup size using fat from elsewhere in the body or trimming a little bit of bone can look good because it’s not a radical change that looks artificially constructed. Secondly, it takes a long time to heal right, it looks worse while healing, and it can be easy to not notice the change over that time.

I’ve seen friends get facial feminization surgery and yeah, they look like a train wreck for a month but a year after surgery sometimes they look better. That said, you also usually need a surgeon willing to tell you no when you ask for too much.

Cannot relate, I fortunately find toxicity unattractive. I wish that spared me, but I’ve had a hell of a time learning to maintain boundaries

Yikes

Being specific is hard because it’s just a category of being a bad partner, and as such there’s plenty of ways to do it lol.

I’ll start by giving a quick overview on how to be a good kink partner: respect boundaries and know your own, communicate and listen, build skills appropriate for your role and interests (you can learn more by talking to people into that interest in the community, especially in the other role, and learning both sides even if you only want to do one is encouraged), know what you want and don’t want, but be open to what you’re not sure about, and in general just try to see everyone in the community as full people, not just as [role]. And for that last one, I really can’t emphasize enough how much better you come off if you have friends across roles and genders, but also the people you’re compatible with are just people, don’t put them into their role until you’ve discussed it and agreed to it.

A lot of the worst experiences involve people who have personality disorders that aren’t sufficiently dealt with for relationships to be a good idea. All of the really bad subs I was thinking of in my comment had borderline personality disorder and had not undergone dbt. They were all also kinda looking for a partner to fix them. But also the domme that got pushed away had bpd, but had underwent years of treatment and had developed healthy habits and understanding of her limits.

So for some specific bad behaviors. Boundary pushing is big. If someone says no or gives an excuse, that means no unless clearly negotiated with a safeword to replace the no. Attempting to negotiate someone’s boundaries or to guilt them into something they’re not interested in is very bad. Overdependance on someone is bad, especially when they don’t agree to it. Your dominant (or submissive) isn’t your therapist they’re somewhere between romantic partner and fuckbuddy, and you should know where you stand (if you don’t know, talk about it with them).

Now for just general bad form things, they’re more akin to being a bad lay. Dominants being overconfident and doing things they aren’t skilled enough to do without giving a heads up (plenty of experienced subs will agree to be a practice dummy to someone they trust, but it’s often not cool to try something the first time without saying so). Subs that come in with a checklist of things they expect from a scene rather than presenting a menu of options and limits and letting the dom construct a scene out of it. Related are the subs who can’t let go of control in a scene after asserting that that’s what they want (if you say it’s what you want but you’re unsure you’re able that’s a different story). The inverse also sucks, subs who don’t know what they’re interested in or what their limits are (and “no limits” is neither true nor appreciated). Subs who neither have skills nor interest in building them. People who jump right into roles without talking about it.

In general new people are given a lot of grace and so long as it’s not overt consent violations the worst a new person will need to do is apologize when corrected and try to do better.

I mean as a woman, I’ll gladly be beaten, I play with electricity and fire, and I’ve been in the leather community and power exchange scene most of my adult life, but rimming will take some convincing

Yeah, as a lesbian sub I’ve noticed one big problem facing straight male subs is a lot of dominant women interested in men get burnt out of the community by bad experiences pretty quickly.

I think it’s partly that yeah ime a lot of dominant straight women are looking for someone masculine, competent, and submissive, while the men tend to be looking more for degradation and caretaking, and neither group seems to be great at finding compromise, and the men often don’t notice what the women are looking for.

But also, bad subs abound. And it’s not just men. I used to switch, but bad experience not related drove me away from it, and around the time I was considering dominance again a submissive woman violated my boundaries to the point IDK if I’ll ever be comfortable domming again. I’ve watched other women have similar experiences with one friend have a string of male subs make her decide to look for submissive men in the non kink scene.

And yeah, what I’ve seen of the feminization types is a real mix of yikes and eggs. Even if I were into men, domming, and feminization I’d be hesitant to get into that can of worms.