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Cake day: June 29th, 2023

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  • I think 14 year old me would be most disappointed that I’m no longer catholic. She’d probably be a mix of angry and excited that I’m trans. Shocked and confused when I explain to her that her parents’ marriage is really really bad and she’s going to need therapy for the way her dad treats her. Then she’s going to be kinda pissed when I tell her that her dad is right about her needing to do better in school, it’s just that he shouldn’t be yelling at her until she self harms about it. She’ll be proud I’m still friends with her friends and that I got out of Ohio to somewhere cool.

    Oh then she’s going to be incredibly disappointed I married someone with tattoos, especially since I’ll call her a classist little shit about it.


  • Yeah a lot of bi people feel that way. I lose all horniness when I smell “man smell”. And I can say it’s absolutely about that because the incident was with someone who had just stopped testosterone and after a few weeks we were sleeping together a few times a week for months.

    Personality is nice for me, but it’s body shape and feel and smell that do it for me, and it all points to women for me.




  • Full agreement. I think another reason the debate bro caught on was that it makes for better content, even before the modern content economy.

    Back in the day when the archetypal internet debates were atheists and science educators vs creationists, you could see it just as effectively. Nobody wanted to watch someone on their side go in with an open mind, open to being convinced and for both sides to come to a position entirely based on the evidence. Hell, I still don’t like that because one side has reproducible evidence and the other failed to indoctrinate me as a teenager.

    A lot of modern bad faith debate tactics come back to creationists, with the infamous Gish gallop named after a creationist. And from there the opposition had to learn to play the game. Debate, not as a neutral shared pursuit of truth, the clash of thesis, antithesis, and evidence to distill an agreeable and defensible synthesis, but rather as a verbal gladiatorial contest.

    The pro evolution side split with the death of new atheism, they’re on all sides now. A lot of the more committed debaters went right for varied reasons, and we wound up in a position where we needed stuff like the alt right playbook to teach how to argue against the dishonest.

    And on the other side of the equation you have the internet rationalist movement, who are infamously bad at the “this sounds like bullshit” test among other flaws. They strive to accept any debate with an open mind, and find themselves a good example of why you need to keep some biases that while you’re open to changing, you’re gonna need strong evidence for.






  • I was in my mid 20s at the time lol, so it may be that I was young. But I was also actively practicing CBT at the time and trying to fix my mind.

    I’ve never had a trip that was unproductively bad, but I’ve also never had a trip that was easy and all fun (n is in the single digits though). All of them fit somewhere in the “challenging” category where a portion of it was very unpleasant, but ultimately constructive.

    My worst was before I started the CBT and was with my now ex around the beginning of the end of the relationship. It was mostly trying to show me that we’d grown incompatible. The lessons of the rest were either similar “hey you’re deliberately ignoring something with someone in your life who you happen to be tripping with”, or “here’s some bullshit you’ve been on and it’s time to confront it and actually change.”

    Those trips aren’t easy, and they aren’t necessarily relaxing. They’re more comparable to an emotional marathon or some other physical challenge made emotional. And I think part of what’s vital is I go in accepting that I can change and part of my goal is change. The suck is necessary to achieve the goal. A big part of how they worked was actually forcing me to face shit. The only way out was through, and by the end a self destructive behavior or thought pattern was firmly something I didn’t want to participate in anymore.

    So yeah I guess learning meditation techniques and how to hamper panic attacks and channel the energy they come with into useful and constructive energy is probably the crux of it though. My cbt was largely focused on that and breaking the destructive habits I learned from cptsd.

    Oh also sex on the come up was always nice.









  • Thank you! Yes, college was important for me to do that sort of thing. I think another part of the problem is that some people see college as entirely about career aspects and don’t engage with it as a holistic experience. Like yeah part of college was the classes, and those were important, they challenged me to learn how to think, how to defend my statements, how to write well, how to do my career, and more. But college was also hanging out chatting with other people interested in knowledge, other people of varied backgrounds and experiences, and just other young people who were interested in living like young people in a relatively low structure environment.