I’m genuinely gonna try to end it if I dont meet anyone to talk to and bond with. I cant with this, I seem to be an exception while everyone else seems to succeed to at least keep a conversation going. also, this conservative family is suffocating me. and environment is I have melatonin, some atarax and maybe some adderall in the house. nothing really lethal per se, but if I combine it with alcohol and something else, it might be deadly. I honestly dont know what to do
This may not be useful and perhaps I am in far too comfortable of a position myself at this point.
What I had to learn is that there’s no easy way and no simple order to those things. Talking to people, like public speaking or anything worth doing for that matter is a skill too and you will get better with practice.
Connecting with people is hard, especially when you’re not quite comfortable with yourself. But you learn as you go. What I can tell you is that isolation will not help you grow.
The mistake I once made was in thinking that I’d need someone else to save me. But no one person can do that.
Treat your mind like you would your body. It too can get injured and need time to heal, but can also become stronger and more resilient.
Anyway, excuse my ramblings. DM me if you want some poetry or edgy self-coined quotes :)