You’ve said you watch a lot of youtube a lot, I think you should stop it. I used to watch youtube a lot as well. In reality I realised that I rarely finish watching youtube feeling relaxed, fullfilled or inspired. And the longer I watched the more dread and hoplessness I felt because I’ve wasted so much time when I could be doing something productive.

A while back my friends and I challenged each other to stop using social media (mainly youtube) for a month and we all learned a lot, we realised how much it was sucking out of our lives and how little it was giving back to us.

I would challenge you to do the same! Quit youtube entirely for a month. It might be difficult at first but eventually you will probably stop thinking about it and realise how little it mattered. And you’ll gain more apppreciation for other more meaningful things like video games (but probably not only video games)