I’ve been internet-diagnosed with autism plenty of times, but the one time I went to get evaluated, they said I didn’t have “it.”
But if it’s a spectrum with different combinations of different traits at different levels of intensity, maybe a diagnosis is irrelevant and what matters is what your constellation of traits actually is, regardless of an official diagnosis (which, let’s face it, is probably highly subjective outside of some constellations–that is to say, with a long enough list of psychologits, I could probably get a dx).
Personally, for me, what this means is I can look to autistic literature to see what resonates with me without worrying about the fact that I don’t share many of the hard markers for autism. For instance, my investment in the truth often conflicts with social niceties even though I can read people’s emotions. I can see myself as an unofficially atypical person in a lot of ways.
I’ll leave my resonsances in the comments below. Feel free to share yours.
idk my psycho said i have autistic traits but not enough for ASD, but the problem, is my insane cencorship with him, and quite messed up history before, and a lot of doctors hate self-diagnosts and overall neurodiversity, here they usually put instead schizo for me(+ im trans + adhd)
but awwtistic awwdhd explains my life a lot, and bullying from childhood a lot(+gender nonconformy), i have a lot of traits, weirdness, etc
i feel disable as hell lol
I had a diagnosis of bipolar disorder rob me of about 20 years of my life.
Be wary of defining yourself by diagnoses and getting into systems where you are a “patient” that needes to be “fixed.” Seeing yourself as ill can be more debilitating than an actual illness.
What I’ve learned is that nobody can know me better than I know myself (and also that knowing oneself is a process that sometimes involves risk).
i never mentioning autism/adhd to doctors, because they will jsut laugh and said that i schizo like they did with my transness, however, i’ve never mentioned transness too, just my mom was put me in this fcking system,
they was patholizing even my talking style, at that moment it was slow, sad, quite, they dont like every trait in me, and yeah transness
i was all life weirdo kid, and they “onset at 12yo, set phone password, started growing hair”
i just avoid psychiatry system, also aaaaaaaaa i cant trauma dump again toooooooo, it was insane
to fix everything in me, like transness, weirdness, they bump me with antipsychotics and i got damage from them(muscle motor problems), also cptsd lol
there the unfun https://piefed.blahaj.zone/c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone/p/833874/my-brain-was-fucked-by-doctors-thanks-you-doooctoor
Criminey.
I can’t say that psych meds ever did anything but make me manic, and they probably did numb my ability to feel emotions. Are you off all of them now?
I got off pretty light–didn’t geta full night’s sleep for close to eight months when I was tapering off Latuda, but everything else was easy peasy.
You know what helped me most? Playing music. Too bad I can’t send an institution a few hundred bucks a month to play it and also pay a certified professional give me monthly permission to play it, otherwise maybe I would have gotten to it sooner.
only tapering sert
everything is good except wanting drugs(maybe still hostile environment?) for euphoria, problems w motor idk its like body armoring,
Yeah, sounds like you’ve got stuff going on.
The reddit sub r/therapyabuse has a pretty good sidebar for ideas on how to cope/deal/heal without participating in an abusive mental health system… maybe there’s some ideas there.
By euphoria, do you mean you like getting high?
yuh, my dopamine receptors are fucked by antipsychotics