I’ve been internet-diagnosed with autism plenty of times, but the one time I went to get evaluated, they said I didn’t have “it.”

But if it’s a spectrum with different combinations of different traits at different levels of intensity, maybe a diagnosis is irrelevant and what matters is what your constellation of traits actually is, regardless of an official diagnosis (which, let’s face it, is probably highly subjective outside of some constellations–that is to say, with a long enough list of psychologits, I could probably get a dx).

Personally, for me, what this means is I can look to autistic literature to see what resonates with me without worrying about the fact that I don’t share many of the hard markers for autism. For instance, my investment in the truth often conflicts with social niceties even though I can read people’s emotions. I can see myself as an unofficially atypical person in a lot of ways.

I’ll leave my resonsances in the comments below. Feel free to share yours.

  • schipelblorp@sh.itjust.worksOP
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    3 days ago

    Criminey.

    I can’t say that psych meds ever did anything but make me manic, and they probably did numb my ability to feel emotions. Are you off all of them now?

    I got off pretty light–didn’t geta full night’s sleep for close to eight months when I was tapering off Latuda, but everything else was easy peasy.

    You know what helped me most? Playing music. Too bad I can’t send an institution a few hundred bucks a month to play it and also pay a certified professional give me monthly permission to play it, otherwise maybe I would have gotten to it sooner.

    • erin the catgirl@piefed.blahaj.zone
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      3 days ago

      only tapering sert

      everything is good except wanting drugs(maybe still hostile environment?) for euphoria, problems w motor idk its like body armoring,

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        15 hours ago

        Yeah, sounds like you’ve got stuff going on.

        The reddit sub r/therapyabuse has a pretty good sidebar for ideas on how to cope/deal/heal without participating in an abusive mental health system… maybe there’s some ideas there.

        By euphoria, do you mean you like getting high?