So ive never had a true friend before most of them treated me like trash or were just horrible so i gues sive never had a real friend before. becasue of that i have trust isues so i dont make online friends and it dosnet feel the same as meeting someone across the street.
ive never had a lover either i kinda feel very alone which is pretty sad honestly and ive had a har dlife so far which dosent help. im depressed and horny and those two are bad together so what do i do. i find it ofly har dto make real friends and i feel very limited too and i get scared when talking to people or meeting someone.
There is an excellent video on YouTube about this: Kurzgesagt – In a Nutshell: Why You Are Lonely and How to Make Friends
In short, spend casual time with (the same) people for longer periods of time.
Also, have you considered doing therapy? Not because anything is wrong with you, but because it can help you manage your feelings and improve your interactions with other people.