Edit: Im asking because I’m currently going through some serious depression and I’ve been forgetting stuff lately. I wake up every morning with a panic attack, I am too tired to do anything. I barely had any appetite to eat. I just wanted to see if I’m the only one. Hearing stories from others makes me feel less alone.
Sorry if I sound pathetic af, I’m just sad
Edit 2: I’m gonna mark this as NSFW because the potential very traumatic stuff.
I had a similar experience, not with broken bones but with joint injuries and generalized hypermobility. I had so many trouble joints that the physical therapy for one joint would be hard on others, sometimes to the point of reinjuring. Finding exercises was a minefield and keeping a routine was a constant balancing act.
For years I had to go mind numbingly slow. I used to weight lift and the few exercises I could do were incredibly boring in comparison. I wanted to be able to crush the exercises and advance out of the boredom, but my body simply couldn’t keep up without new injuries. It’s been about 4 years now and I’m finally able to add some exercises I like, but it’s painfully slow. I like walking but every time I step on the treadmill I want to go faster, longer. Then I injure myself because I went 2.5 mph instead of 2 and 1.5 mi instead of 1. Frustrating.
When I look back, I can see the improvements. I realize a joint that used to be in constant pain hasn’t been trouble for a while. I almost cried when I could kneel on the floor again. The physical therapy is working. What I thought would take weeks takes months, what I thought would take months takes years. But if I’m going to live several more decades (hopefully), I have that time. So might as well keep up with it.
For me, it has been a realization that there are a lot of small muscles that are used to hold up the human head. No one has been able to figure out what exactly I have damaged, but it is probably quite a few things.
If you do the math for the speeds involved, I basically took the equivalent of a headfirst dive from a ten story building and survived. It really was a “I barely survived” situation; no hyperbole required.
When I push, I break stuff, and I just didn’t see any returns. I still do a daily routine on my own, but there is no reason for me to spend the money on PT with no results. I did that for 3 years. I’m at 10 this coming February.