my wife’s family told my wife i couldn’t spend xmas day with them (and my 3 kids <6). i told both our families i have a fear of being alone. i have a fear of being alone with my thoughts. i keep forgetting my meds, to drink water, to eat food. everyone left me alone for xmas. what the hell? im still here at home, 2 days later, alone, wondering when they’ll come home. i am hurt. i am over being angry. i am tired. i am sad. i am so confused. i want the thoughts to stop. i want the pain to stop. why are they so cruel?

That looks tasty. I have recently (as in last week) been baking bread in our panasonic bread maker, haven’t used it in years but it’s been a hit with the younglings. This makes me want to up my bread game 😆