i feel really lucky that i had a singular event where i realized im trans, even though it was way later in life than i would have liked. it was my first acid trip, like an hour in when it really started ramping up, and it just hit me all at once that i was a woman. it was like a geyser of thoughts and feelings all shooting up from my subconscious and crystalizing into the truth about myself that i had always known but couldnt really identify. i felt the tiny mental box id shoved myself into trying to perform man for the world, how limiting it was, and how much it hurt me. id never felt so feminine before, which im told is a relatively common experience for trans fems. interestingly i never felt that way on mushrooms, even marginally. anyway it being a singular event really helped me get past the imposter syndrome so many of us feel after our egg cracks.

i wish i could still do this. i dont find any video games engaging enough to play any more ;_;

8, having a time lately

sometimes i think the only reason theres so much media where the protagonist chooses not to take their revenge at the last second is because the capitalists know how fucking evil they are and want to brainwash everyone into thinking they shouldnt take revenge on them. but a lot of times revenge is the only justice we will ever get, and the only thing stopping evil people from being worse.

when you go to bed and accidentally clip through reality and end up in the bedrooms

who’s running :3

the worst part is idek what my gender identity really is. woman is the best approximation but beyond that im too weird to fit neatly in anyones box. we’re all our own special little goblins at the end of the day.

a dwarf in a flask, homunculus

ass :3

yes and no. i pick up on a lot thanks to decades of being expected to be a mind reader and a clairvoyant. its honestly painful because a lot of times it doesnt feel like i have a choice but to be hypervigilant, even if im exhausted. it can be pretty useful sometimes, but the problem is i learned this with people who treated me like shit, so theres lots of behaviors that i take with a severely negative implication. when im dealing with someone who isnt trying to manipulate me or hurt me, someone who cares about me, my reading of the implication can be very wrong. this has cost me a lot more than i care to admit over the years. its been really hard trying to let go and trust people to be honest with me, but im making progress.

what id give for a protrusive ass…

i wish that were so…

which base is her caring about me as a person?

so real no one can do anything but upvote and try to forget the horrors, at least for the moment

edward…

could be wrong but maybe if we stopped giving them a reason to flush meth down the toilet people would stop. no one wants to flush drugs down the toilet. they do it to avoid criminal charges for normal human behavior.

gross why would anyone want a fucking chatbot automoderating their server? thats just giving all your chat to an ai company. fuck off with this trash.