Normal is, indeed, boring. I wish I could be part of punk scene, instead of being bullied or ostracized. Well, I do my best to make up for this now in my 40’s.

Oh boy, you’d rather ask when haven’t I.

My thoughts exactly. I would rather recommend reading an actual book by Jung or on Jung. Some of them are rather approachable (far more, than Freud, at least), except for the Red Book, afaik.

I am confused about that. On one hand, I know that I may be masking - due to autism, cptsd or, most likely, both. But I am not sure, how I do this. Instead of putting out a fake persona (which makes me exhausted even thinking about), I rather mute my personality and become bland. I have no idea, who my real self is, though. As for your question, my intuition is against it - if you’ve never done it, you may be perceived as fake and it may backfire. Don’t try to win with the NT in their game - it’s as sensless as expacting that a random NT will be eager to chat about nuclear fusion.

Anyway, my guess is to read about people with APD - they are pretty effective in masking, if they’re smart.

I wish it were so easy 😅