Hey, guys.

Recently going through some job hell (see post history) and wondering how autism might impact that.

Problem is I’ve been explicitly NOT diagnosed with autism by a psychologist, but the internet pretty often will just assume I am when I’m talking about any post remotely touching on my social life.

So I’m wondering if a post along the lines of, “would it be useful to think in terms of autistic traits, even w/o an official diagnosis, and how would I conceptualize myself differently by doing so?” would be useful or annoying. Would there be a better forum for a post like that?

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In other news, I’m making empanadas today for a holiday party on Saturday. I haven’t made them before, and I haven’t been to any kind of party for like five years.

Yesterday I went to a different open mic night. My usual place was a bunch of cliquey-AF young LGBT’ers obsessed with being young LGBTers and as a much older only perhaps bisexual guy, I was just COMPLETELY frozen out of any social belonging. They inspired the phrase

What we learned from being excluded for who we are is to form our own group to exclude others not exactly like us. This is social progress.

Anyway, I went there for almost a year pretty regularly and people who I’d talked to the very week earlier would look at me with some confusion when I started talking to them, and then I’d see the light of recognition behind their eyes and they’d say, “Oh, you’re that guy.”

As well as “It’s so great that you’re staying up late at your age” at like, 9:30 pm.

Anway, last night’s place was a bunch of oldsters like me and they actually invited me back to next month’s song circle, and one guy invited me to his gig happening tonight, so I’m cautiously optimistic that I’m on the road to finding some real community at long last.