Using a lot of energy to manage stress right now. Our move to Germany, which was supposed to happen at the end of June, was suddenly cancelled as the company announced massive layoffs last week. They obviously knew about it when they wrote the new contract. We already had an agreement to a temporary flat and possible tenants coming to see our flat + other arrangements made. Never trust a capitalist. Thank dog some maneuvers were still possible to soften the (possible) fall.

Feeling sad and disappointed and really heavy for losing that opportunity and having to rearrange ourselves and our lives again. I was really happy about a new direction but nah. I’m glad I’ve done a lot of work the last year learning new coping strategies so I manage a lot better with this situation than I would’ve before.

Also some random blasts from the past have struck lately. It feels as if I need to face some people and situations and make peace with them. Another thing that came to an end today is a court case which has bothered me for 4 years - I witnessed a possible battery, and I’ve been called to the court to give a statement about it several times, only to be told the day before that it’s been postponed. Failing to show up would result in fines, so it’s really annoying to have to reserve the day in calendar and then it’s cancelled. I didn’t even have much to say about the whole thing and couldn’t identify anyone… Glad that’s been dealt with finally.