No it was not easy. Literally no step of the process was even remotely pointed in the same direction as easy. You observing me finally finish a task does not mean it was ever, is currently, or necessarily will be in the future, easy.
And if it is easy in the future? That’s my personal win, not your right to dismiss my past hard work that got me here.
I can’t even do things I love due to task paralysis. I want to walk dog, but I need a shower and can’t get up. I want to build an electrical device I have parts for, but worry about everything else so much I just can’t. I can’t do anything but sit.
I’m sorry, I know how horrible that feels.
If I’m struggling to get up, it sometimes helps me to focus on a single body part e.g. my right hand, and just concentrate on moving my fingers, then the fingers of both hands, then my toes, my legs, then sit up, etc. I find moving the first finger is the hardest, each move after that is a little easier, until I’m standing up.
Also, I regularly walk my dog without having showered or brushed my teeth. I pull yesterday’s clothes off the floor, dress, and go outside. If anyone tries talking to me I just smile (closed mouth) or nod, and move on. I’ve become pretty good at “bugger off and leave me alone” body language 🤭
I hope you can get out of your head soon x