let me start by saying i recently learned of my autism late in life, so i’ve had no awareness of some of my behaviors as autistic until recently.
it’s often said that people with autism have a strong personal sense of right and wrong. neurotypicals may label it as stubborn but i see it as principled. obviously, nts can have an equal sense of right and wrong, but it does appear to be uniquely within autism that it can present as a detriment. for example, i will often sabotage myself if it means i’ll be forced to do something i find reprehensible or objectionable, like i’d rather risk homelessness than take a job in health insurance if i was unemployed.
how has this affected you throughout your life?
for me it has been both a benefit and a massive hindrance. over time i have learned ways to recontextualize certain situations and circumstances, but there are areas i am simply unwilling to compromise on.


Currently trying not to fixate on the past too much but at every juncture it’s been pivotal.
Core memories involve standing up to people more powerful than me whilst witnessing others pretend nothing is happening in order to preserve their sense of normalcy.
Trying to practice compassion for people who don’t/ can’t speak out for the sake of my own sanity and deeply fear being the kind of person who stays quiet.