Today started out normal, then my mom and I were talking about me getting a job. I mentioned being a dishwasher at a local baseball stadium (young children are invited to work there every summer). My mom then got really defensive and stated all the negatives of being a dishwasher but said that if that’s what I wanted, that it’s fine. She likes to give off mixed messages sometimes.

I ended up getting frustrated and told her that this is what I want (I always do the dishes for my family and enjoy doing it, whether it’s first thing in the morning or late at night). It is also one of the few jobs there that doesn’t require much social interaction, most of the jobs there involve waitressing and vending and I’m just not into it. I’ve applied for other jobs in my area and have had several interviews, but nobody has hired me because of my lack of experience.

Anyway, I walked away from the situation, and went back five minutes later. To my surprise, I managed to calm myself down (ironically by doing the dishes lol). Afterwards, I told her how much I love and appreciate her. I also managed to stay calm when she threw out the idea of her and I going to lunch without telling me sooner.

Tomorrow will be a good day. I’m not going to mention anything stupid, I’m just going to do my chores and behave myself, and hopefully get myself back on the nice list lol.

Has anybody else felt like this? I’m one of those people that is super sensitive by the smallest thing, and one little thing can ruin my day.