I was a bit more ADHD, but this hits hard.
I know exactly where it started. In high school when I finally had a group project with 3 of my long-time friends and ended up being the only one who did their part after we agreed how to split up the presentation. It embarassed me so much, I froze up and could not speak despite trying which freaked me out and I had to go to the nurse. Ever since, if I am too emotionally overwhelmed, I become physically unable to speak.
I used to be pretty outgoing before that.
:c
I learned to read at a very young age. I would always read ahead. Then, hearing the other kids stumble over their words was a sensory nightmare.
I felt I was pretty clever when I forgot to do my homework and only did the parts I was in line to present while other people were doing theirs.
Turns out it’s just one of my AuDHD traits.
“Luckily i got it wrong enough times to get good at flying by the seat of my pants.” lol
My anxiety started in History class when I learned about the hell world I would be stepping into
Oof