Furiously flip flopping between purposeful, satisfying hobbies and a bottomless pit of despair with no interests whatsoever

[Insert funny meme here]

Goodbye game development, it was a magical four weeks 🥲

I haven’t been able to summon any hyperfixations for a while and without that energy burst it’s nearly impossible to start any projects, even things I’d - in theory - enjoy. And then on the other hand now that I know where those “this must be the thing that will make life meaningful and give me direction” -thoughts came from I’m also restricting myself to not start anything new because nothing will carry very far. Burnout sucks.

Edit: I’ve also noticed that Elvanse makes it harder to start new things, apparently because it evens out the dopamine spikes that one would normally get from new hyperfixations.

My counsellor told me that some people stop taking their ADHD meds if they need to start a new (creative) project.