Edit: Im asking because I’m currently going through some serious depression and I’ve been forgetting stuff lately. I wake up every morning with a panic attack, I am too tired to do anything. I barely had any appetite to eat. I just wanted to see if I’m the only one. Hearing stories from others makes me feel less alone.

Sorry if I sound pathetic af, I’m just sad

Edit 2: I’m gonna mark this as NSFW because the potential very traumatic stuff.

  • Wugmeister@lemmy.dbzer0.com
    10·
    1 year ago

    When I turned 18, my parents stopped intervening in my bad decisions. This led to me neglecting a lot of my basic needs. I also discovered the magic of coffee at this time, which meant I didn’t get a lot of sleep.

    Here’s a short list of some things that happened during this period:

    • Realized my spiritual beliefs were provably wrong, then realized how strong the placebo effect is, then realized a bunch of my core memories were provably fake. Cue 6 months of existential crisis where I had no clue what was real and was unsure if I existed
    • while in the shower before my 5 am lifeguard shift, I looked down to see a foot in the shower with me. Could not figure out who it belonged to, since I was alone. It also seemed to be reading my mind, since if I thought about wiggling my toes then the mystery foot would wiggle its toes. Reached down to pick up the foot, then realized it was attached to my leg.
    • girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me
    • While my parents were away on vacation (and I hadn’t slept in a while) I saw an alien hovering outside my front door at 3 am
    • I regularly saw shadow tentacles reaching out and interacting with people and objects around me (this was caused by caffeine toxicity plus sleep deprivation)
    • fell asleep on the lifeguard chair. Thankfully my boss was understanding, but that’s where I started to realize I had a problem
    • had some suicidal ideation after parents threatened to kick me out
    • realized my most reliable friend was a neonazi and a pedophile

    I spent the next few years working on myself, and at 21 my prefrontal cortex came in the mail and made everything easier. By 23 i had achieved all my mental health goals. I am now 26, I have a wonderful fiancée, and I am happier day-to-day than I ever have been.